Denney & Denney here I come

Have an interview at Denney & Denney tomorrow in Ampang. Gosh, I hope it goes well; so well that they will decide that they can't live without my writing skills! =P Wish me luck all! I still need to go and do a recon of course. It IS in Ampang. Wish it was nearer. Oh well, let's see how it goes.

Mary Poppin�s carpetbag

Phew, we are finished. I�ve been helping my eldest sister move house for the past three days. Even Lee Hoon took two days off to help out. Lee Na may have lived in a tiny house, but surprise surprise, she has a gazillion stuff stuffed in that small space. She�s just so organized that she managed to cramp everything in, with labels. =P Geeze� It was like pulling stuff out of Mary Poppin�s bag. Bottomless and magical it was; everythime when we rediscovered the Forgottens. She has a ceiling high cupboard full of the children�s things since 8 years ago. That woman�s a hoarder. It�s in the genes� =/
Mom stayed the night as the geomancer instructed that the first night in the new house should only be the owner�s family. Hope it works in warding off the creepies.

Today, I went for a massage and after that my aerokick. The masseuse asked me if I had been carrying anything heavy even before she started to knead my back muscles. Apparently my muscles were so knotted that it bulged! And I was as hard as a rock, so says the masseuse. Usually I can sleep through my session, but this time every press on my pressure points had me going �Ack, Uhh, and Omgawd�. I must have been wailing something fierce on that table. Later we went back to Lee Na�s new house to help her put all her things away. Pull them out then put them back� sigh.

Carpe Noctum

I've been having a lot of LATE nights lately and I'm bone wearied. I've been babysitting during the day and doing my own thing at night. It is the only time when I can get some quality time with my inner self. I guess I can be termed as 'hongsim' a hokkien term for somebody who doesn't want the fun to end, in my case I didn't want the day to end, so I seized my nights.

Just finished the last of the POSTAM articles for Zona. Did some freelancing for her. I've been taking my own sweet time so much so that it annoyed her I asked for the latest deadline she could give. (Her irritation had some help from an external stimulus as I later discovered online.) I could feel the annoyed vibes coming from my cell phone, which of course triggered my own irritation. Action reaction, that's me. Well, it got me all huffy so I finished the last one straight away after her sms and emailed them to her right after.

Later we chatted online.

Tomorrow I have to go over to Lee Na's again to baby-sit. This is going to continue way until next month. I think by that time I'll be dead.

Was supposed to go back to Kota Bharu later today as today is my dad's 14th anniversary but miscommunications and bad timing stopped that from happening and now I have to burn RM200 because I can't get a refund on my tickets. Had this whole 'talk' with my sis online about it which escalated into a sling fest about my mom. Sigh. I'm tired. I'm finally gonna sleep earlier tonight.

AND I didn't get the Trix job. I got a rejection email today. sigh...

How far would you go?

Hmmm while I'm waiting I might as well blog about last night. But I keep in mind that blogging is a double-edged sword. Anyway, I'm feeling irritated at a couple of friends now. My sis is even more irritated at my friends so much so that she asked me why I am friends with them. This is sooo freakin' frustrating. I can't blog properly in fear of wounding them and I don't want to hurt them, but my ire has been simmering and it's bubbling over so I need therapy, thus I blog! BAH!

- CENSURED thus CENSORED -

I guess it is bad of me that I don't appreciate my friend's "friendly gesture" and all but like I explained, it threw all my other plans off as well as pissing my sister off. My house is small. It doesn't even have enough legroom much less extra space to let others lounge about. Thus feeling cramped after a hard day's work is not something my sis needs to experience when returning. If it were my house, then I don�t mind friends coming over and hanging out. In fact I would love it, as long as it was planned. I like the quiet. But it is not my house. And I have to make sure my sister�s comfort comes first.

Happy Birthday Mum!

1610 hour, Malaysian Time. =P

Just need to book this spot so that I can blog later about Mom's birthday. I'm bringing my best wines to help her celebrate it. I was thinking of the port but nah, port should only be drunk when the weather is nice and cold. *Delicious shudder* Gosh I miss Perth. Anyway, later dude. =)


0111 hour, late night, Malaysian time

Gosh, I'm so euphoric right now that I need a spell checker to make sure I don't type gibberish right now. Just came back from my sis's place in BSD and just came back from celebrating my mom's birthday. Yikes, I'm sooooo high. I had to finish a whole bottle of Verdhelo by myself, coz the rest didn't like dry wine, white or not. We also had three other reds. It was good. Mom was so surprised when we burst out of the car with balloons and flowers when we went to pick her up at Sentral Station. All is well if she is happy. Haha.... I'm not making sense, am I? Wheeeee! I'm trying to dance the alcohol level down with my trance. =P Don't think it is working coz I'm still sooooo euphoric. Geeze... I think I finish two bottles on my own. Lee Hoon cannot drink reds coz she is allergic, mom can't drink much at all, neither can my brother-in-law... which leaves me and Lee Na. We polished off all the bottles of reds and white, and now I'm happy!

I know I'm gonna regret this in the morning. Anyway, nite all... need to sleep soon coz I have gym tomorrow. So I'm gonna dance myself to snoozyland. Boom, boom. boom......zzzzzzzzzzzzzzz!

Congratulations Patrick & Edna

Just came back from Patrick & Edna�s wedding ceremony. Although I don�t know them, they are Zona�s friend, so I went� with an issued non-linear invitation. *grin* I was late and Lee Hoon was teasing me that I�ll probably arrive JUST before the bride. The universe has conspired with JKR or something to keep me from the wedding. I went for gym in the morning and left the premises at exactly 1.15pm, thinking it was plenty of time to 2pm. HAH! Was I wrong� Somehow, roads were being torn up and retarred everywhere. What is this? THE day to retar all the roads on my route? So we had to detour via Bangsar. And every car on the road seems sooooo slow and stupid. Sigh� then a lorry pulled out in front of us and we were going up a slight hill at 20 kph. Then came the traffic jam at University Hospital. Had to detour via Amcorp. Finally I reached the church at 1.52pm. THANK GOODNESS, I was spared the embarrassment you always see in the movies.

It was a different kind of wedding for me, it being catholic and all. I�m not used to all the religious murmurings. My church is more sedate, and this wedding was an experience for me. But I must say the highlight of the wedding is Angelus. Patrick & Edna�s son. He is SOOOOO CUTE! Zona brought him over after the ceremony and I got to play with him for a while. He has got beautiful eyes and he�s so �clutchy�. He was very interested in Zona�s mom�s fan coz it was RED. That boy is strong for his age. He was very eager to get to the fan, no matter the four feet drop to the floor. =P Very determined little boy. But he�s cute, he�ll get away with lotsa stuff�

Gotta go to my sis�s place now in BSD. My mum's birthday is today. But at this moment, she�s back in KB, waiting to board the plane to KL. She is in great demand. =P Everyone has been taking her out for birthday celebrations that this is the earliest flight she could make. I�m happy that she�s happy. Okay, will continue this later. Gotta go. Happy Birthday Mum!

Are some things too private to blog?

This matter still weighs heavily on my mind and I came to the conclusion that to NOT blog would be unfaithful to my true self. I set this up to document my life and this is something that I should remember and not be ashamed of. I'm not ashamed I took a step forward. I'm not ashamed that that step wasn't a step but a lesson about life. Whatever happens happens for a reason, and I'm determined to learn from it and move on.

I think about what went awry and I've yet to come up with a plausible answer. I've gone over it in my mind over and over and over again, and... What the heck went wrong? I don't know, and after much analyzing I'm beginning not to care. Matters of the heart cannot be forced, but then it wasn't quite close to the heart. It was more of curiosity and eagerness to explore the possibility of something good I guess. Yet I felt sad. Zona said because he was already a friend.

But some things are too private to blog, and for certain reasons. Only Zona knows about this. Well Kim as well, but Kim is in Perth so the distance adds a different factor altogether. And the interesting question is why is it only Zona and Kim who knows? Why have I not talked about this to others? Is it the fear of discovery and condemnation, or is it self-abhorrence that I kept it so hush-hushed?

Maybe I was acting out on my Island Dream. Last year when I was with Will, we talked about how we dream about others and how it affects our future indirectly. Will would tell me about his dreams of me but I couldn't tell him mine coz I never dreamt about him. He was most offended. During that period, I did have a dream. I dreamt that I was on a deserted island, with clear crystal blue waters and powder soft white sand between my toes. I had on a Grecian style blue dress on and I was on a rickety wooden dock. Waiting. My face was turned towards to ocean breeze and I've never felt so alone in my entire life. The feeling was that of an empty heart and I was waiting for something or someone I don't know. I felt very much alone and yet I wasn't sad.

I am a vessel half full. I wait still...

Pei Ching's relocating!

Just spent a whole day with Pei Ching, a childhood friend of 14 years. We've known each other since we were nine when we were in Standard Three. I drew first blood. *grin* Interesting start to our friendship. I accidentally scratched her cheek with the corner of my plastic covered book, and she cried and sicced her mom on me! =P But after that we got to know each other and we've been good friends ever since.

Now I'm going to miss her so much. *wail* She's flying to Glasgow this Sunday for good! She will be there on a working permit that I think will eventually become a PR since her other half is there. Even though we don't call each other everyday and such, but we always make sure we are in touch somehow. I wish some of you could meet her, she's a great person. (She was the branch manager for Prima Health in Kepong after working in the SS2 branch for a while - worked her way to the top in a short time. Amazing person that gal.) So last night when she asked me to accompany her today while she run errands, of course I said yes. It was good to catch up with her again. We talked about who's doing what and where and who's married and such. She's the hub of our KB friends update thing. Social butterfly mah. =P

After that we met up again after dinner and met up with Ai Mei, who had just returned from US. It was kind of awkward for me with Ai Mei but we sort of became as ease with each other after a while. I guess it was due to the fact that this was the first time we are seeing each other in 6 years. So lotsa catching up to do there. It was good meeting her again. =)

My sexuality...

Haha, saw this at Zona's site and decided to have a go. *grin* Omigawd... is this why I got asked for a threesome by a guy and his girlfriend????

I'm a tomboy! What are you???


Tomboy


What's your sexual appeal?
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Daniel hates me coz I sent him to the corner... often

Hmm, sorry guys, I've been very busy this few days and that is why I have not blog for 4 days now. So at Grey's request via Zona, here I am. *Deep curtsy* **GRIN**

There were 32 emails in one of my inboxes and only 5 of them were worth clicking on - the rest were JUNK! Bah, looks like someone's been giving out my email addy to those pests. I have another account where I direct all my junk emails. Thank goodness my moose-mail account is still junk free. Anyway, heck of a week for me.

Thursday saw me going to Trix for an interview. Friday, Saturday, and Sunday AND today saw me babysitting. It was tiring. On Friday, I took a cab over to my sister's place in BSD and stayed until 11pm. I had to go home as I had aerokick the next day. Aerokick was a killer that day. It was a different instructor - Joey; Noor had food poisoning. Joey is a cruel 'taskmaster'... He worked our thighs to jelly with his numerous sets of kicks and squats. I managed to steam some of the kinks away, just enough me to run after Daniel later. *SIGH* But after gym I went over to BSD again, and on Sunday sis dropped those little 'angels' at my place. They were good for the better part of the day but Daniel is very hyperactive. I had to lock my bedroom door after he climbed the double deck and jumped from it. Then he found the 2 feet Maglite and started waving it around as a light saber and put a sizable dent on the side of the shelf as well as nearly toppling Lee Ling's collection of �parfums�. Sigh. All I did was went to the back to throw a wrapper and he was in the room in a thrice! Jonathan and Benjamin were less energetic. They were content to just sit and draw and play building blocks. Daniel's taste run more towards the extremes. He's a premature baby and apparently according to the cabby they are the most energetic ones. Yeah I had a conversation about "diffucult" children with the cabby today.

I went for a test at Trix today so that they can gauge my skills in editorial. The test took me 2 hours and 15 minutes to complete, as there were 6 questions to answer. Nope, no such thing as multiple choices here. =P Took a cab there and a cab back. I must say it was a weird experience riding in those two cabs. The first cabby said Good Morning in a singsong tone and a Have a nice day, and the second one wish me a Good Day after obviously unloading his problems with his rebellious children on me the whole way home. He says "children of different sexes should never be left alone as you never know what could happen once their curiosity overtakes them." Eeeesh, this incestuous angle is very uncomfortable, especially when I don't know these children. What up with the world today? *roll eyes*

I had to rush home from Atria (Trix is near Atria) as sis was dropping off children at 3pm. So I had the children over until 6pm. Daniel however was unusually good today. But then good is as good as. He was sulking and angry at me after I denied him the chance to play with the maglite again. His little rebellion tired him out I guess - he fell asleep where he sulked! Luckily he was sulking on the couch. Even when he woke, he still refused to acknowledge me, the little rebel. =)

Went for a drink with Zona at 6.30pm as she had 'time to kill' as she was waiting to go to a food tasting session with Patrick and Edna. We caught up and I found out about Nick's car! The poor guy... Tuesday�s down-pour deprived him of the comforts of his little Kelisa. Apparently the car was submerged to the roof! It's gonna costs him lotsa blues to get his car cleaned.

Fish are friends, not food!

Hi, my name's Sharon and I'm a fishaholic. ^__^ Went to watch Finding Nemo with Zona, Masrey (Masrey's blog seems to be missing... ) and Andy. I must say Pixar has outdone themselves in terms of attention to details, the play on the fish's name and real character, and the kinetics of the models.... my jaw is still on the floor. Pixar has really gone a long way since Toy Story. Yeap it is THAT good. Gosh I wish I had broadband, then I'll be able to download the trailers. The first 5 minutes of the film saw me with my eyes shining with wonder (maybe it just reflection on my cornea..=P) at the sheer display of colours in the oceans of Pixar's world. Think: Little Mermaid Under the Sea song part in 3D. The story definately had a Disney feel to it - the feel-good factor. It has always been their magic formula - tragedy, hardship, friendship, fun and happy ever after.

Nemo is cute but Marlin is adorable. He grows on ya. At first he may be the over-protective father but in the end he is THE father. It is funny naming a clown fish Marlin. When he is just a guppie. How does the saying go? Ah yes... He may be small in size but huge in heart. =P Then the part about how he and Coral, his wife first met: "Excuse me miss, can you help me get this hook out of me?" *grin*

I could go on and on about the movie but I won't coz I'm tired and sleepy. Go see it for yourselves! =) Later dude...

Another interview

Trix just called and they want me to go in for an interview tomorrow at 6.45pm. What a weird hour... but they start interviewing at five. It is either tomorrow on Monday at 5pm. Sigh.. it's in Damasara Jaya. Why are all the jobs in Damansara? Is it some sort of hub for these companies... how will I get there? TAXI!

I also submitted my resume to Bates Malaysia and I just got a reply. They are not hiring at the moment. Oh well.

Oh yeah, Bill finally answered my email and I should have listened to Vijay. Vijay told me to forget about the whole Bill thing after nada replies to my emails. But I persisted and finally I got an answer from Bill. He said he has decided to use back his old graphics and will call me if he needs work done next time. And "by the way, Unit Trust will be launching soon, are you still interested in joining us? Do give me a call if you change your mind." SIGH... it was nothing but a recruitment drive. The faker. WHY WHY WHY do I get myself into these situations? Last time was the illegal coffee trading company that got raided a week after I left. I count my blessings I was able to escape financially intact and no way will I ever get myself involve in this trading business again. Sheesh...

Is this me?

Feeling low still so I took the Identity Test at Emode.And a few of the 'deductions'...

Openness To Experience

...you probably have a strong creative streak. (ERM...) Your broad intellectual curiosity and your interest in the various arts set you apart. Some people may consider you somewhat of a dreamer (EVERYONE DOES) , and your taste for variety often means moving quickly on to the next experience. This tendency makes you appear a bit flighty and inconsistent. (ME, FLIGHTY?) But these elements of your personality simply reflect a character full of new ideas and charged with emotions.

Negative Emotionality

...you're quite sensitive, and highly reactive to outside stimuli. (SO TRUE) ...you may be more prone to stress and embarrassment as a result of your sensitivity. It should be noted that high sensitivity often means a lowered feeling of overall satisfaction with life. But at the same time, this sentiment is often the basis for making important changes in the world. People who know you probably see you as a bit thin-skinned, and susceptible to mood swings. (HMMM.... IS THIS TRUE?!)

Happy 2nd Anniversary Doxob!

Went to doxob's gathering last night with Zona and Grey. (Grey's a new acquaintance.) It was okay. I only know a few people there and they are all sort of casual acquaintances... but there were a lot of new members apparently. Was feeling a little misplaced. I think Grey felt that too. We were generally keeping each other company while Zona did the rounds of the Hellos and how are yous. She is very famous. One guy came up to her and asked, "You're Zona, right?" Apparently he knew about her through a friend in Perth who reads Aqmal's blog. Talk about a teeny world. But then that's a normal phenomenon for Zona. One day that girl is gonna make it big and I'll have to call her PA to arrange for a slot in her schedule just to say Hi. Then after 5 mins, the PA prob come bustling in with a, "Sorry to interrupt you Miss Tan, but your 8 o'clock appointment is here. Miss Teo, this way please, through the servant's entrance. Have a good day!" then cheery wave and SLAM! @_@

Interesting fact: I can play darts! I never knew how fun it was. Well, of course it is fun when you are being challenged by guys and beating the cargo pants of 'em! *Gleeful laugh* It's all in the wrist and beginner's luck. (wink) *Muahaha*

Days when I'm just BLECH

I'm in a pretty low place right now that I'm beginning to hate myself for not being a better person. I had so many grand plans but there were all castles in the sky. Blech... I feel so disgusted with myself. I wish I were that other alter ego that sometimes manifests herself in me. Why can't I be that person ALL the time, then I wouldn't be in this predicament. Sigh. My sis just tallied my 'account' with her and the debt is huge. I'm talking thousands. I have no idea how long it is gonna take me to pay her back and the fact that I can't pay her back just yet is driving me crazy. Where is the power girl that I know I can be?

As usual I went for my aerokick session. It was good, very sweaty and all. We had a new instructor, Rio, who took over for Noor who is on holiday. Rio's pretty good as well. Her moves were different, faster but simpler. But what was UNUSUAL was me being steamed alive in the steam room. Since I took a hot bath before going in, I didn't realised how hot it was when I first went in. After 5 mins, I started to feel the skin under my nails burning, like it was being cooked. Alarmed, I literally jumped up and the disturbance in the steamy air was enough to alert me to how HOT the steam actually was. I quickly duck under a warm to cool shower to bring my temperature down. Five minutes was all it took to cook me in my skin. My whole left side started splotching with thick red webbed marks. Luckily I had my face in my arms, so it wasn't that burned. When I saw the splotches, I was appalled. I marched to the consultant's room and ran a peal over her head. Apparently the temperature controls are operated by the cleaners! No wonder! But still they should have been advised NOT to cook their clients, right?! Sheesh...

Line dancing with a twist

Line dancing last night was way COOL. Went with Estella and Jaymee to Souled Out. Too bad Vijay couldn't join us. They taught us belly-dancing! With arabian music (reminded me of Basem) blaring out at every corner, one can't help but allow one's hips to twitch sexily this way and that. =P I enjoyed myself, but I wish the session was longer - it only lasted an hour. But it was fun still learning the basic moves of belly-dancing. Basem would have enjoyed this plus he knows a few moves as well. Wonder how is the little fellow? Sigh... I really miss them all. I've always had a fascination with belly-dancing coz it is so sensual and a great tummy trimmer. I envy those who does it so well. The instructor gave Jaymee his card - his studio is in Sri Hartamas it self but as usual no transport means I no can join. One day I shall... muahahaha....

Bad dreams - bad life?

My mom told me about a dream she had recently that made my hair stand on end. She dreamt that she was trapped in the bathroom and something was pounding on the door trying to get in. Whatever it was was very strong and the constant pounding left a claw indent on the door. My mom was terrified as the indent was getting deeper and deeper and she was scared the door might give way. In the end, she had enough and decided to confront the monster. She whipped open the door and she saw a huge claw coming at her and trying to claw her. She tried to bat it away but the claw was HUGE. She screamed... and she woke up.

At the same time, my sister Lee Na, sleeping a few feet away was also having a bad dream. She woke up about the same time my mom did and looked towards my mom. Behind my mom was the corridor to the bathroom. There was a shadow of a figure standing next to the bathroom door. My sis knew what it was but she didn't tell my mom what she saw. Mom and sis talked about their respective dreams and both were similiar in nature if not details.

This made me think. What if our souls, our sub-consciousness wonders when we sleep and these things know that they can get to us there. So they would use this 'realm' to scare us or even hurt us. What if every nightmare we had somehow decreases our life? My mom woke up really scared and panting. It is not good for her high blood pressure. Maybe when we dream, our soul takes this opportunity to wonder, to experience more than the physical self is capable of, and maybe this is why dreams seem so real.

When my sis gets her 'episodes' it is usually when she is tired and worn out. I have seen this and it scares me shitless. I've had to hold her down so many times with my entire body but she still manages to throw me off as well as her huge husband. Her eyes would be white and twitching and she would be incoherent to us. When she screams, it is blood-curling. Those were the violent episodes. When she sleeps she gets trapped in that realm and escape seems impossible. Sometimes, she'll be like that for 12 hours or more. So she tries not to sleep and thus she is weakened - body, mine and soul. It got so bad a few months back that she was constantly possessed every other day.

Recently, they consulted a geomancer and was advised to move from the current house as it was a cross road for the unliving. The house sits on the border of the living and unliving. Thus, it is a portal for them to pass through as and when they wish and Lee Na sees them. I believe that some people are born susceptible to these kind of things. My mom, Lee Na and Lee Ling and my nephews are those who see these things. Lee Na and Lee Ling follows my mom in genes and maybe that is why they see whereas Lee Hoon and I don't. I may not see them but I feel them. No wonder I was never comfortable in Lee Na's house. I always felt that I was being watched by... something. How should we react to something like this?

One, two, three... four(?) HIGH KICK!

I brought Zona along as a guest to Philip Wain today. I don't think she enjoyed herself at all. I dunno why yet coz I haven't dug the reason out of her yet. We tentatively planned to go out for ice cream tonight but I was still at Lee Na's house till late and Zona had a meeting. So it's postponed. Gee... ice cream after gym. All that hard work weighed down by calories! =P

Gosh my timing was totally off today when it came to kicking. Apparently the count is 1,2,3 kick but mine was somehow a four step thing. Blech... Noor the instructor tried to correct me and I tried to allow myself to be corrected but no cookie. Sigh... my only excuse is that it's a thing from my taekwondo days. Yeah excuses, excuses. Hee hee... So embarrassed. Plus the sight of my ungainly self jumping about... *shudder* I reminded myself of a huge jumping jellybean - cherry red coz of all the blood rushing to the surface! Sigh. Oh well... I'm a jellybean... with teeth. WARNING! JUMPING JELLYBEAN WILL BITE IF PROVOKED!

After that went for a facial at Joys. It was soooo good that I fell asleep throughout the 2 hours and a half treatment. I really didn't want to move from that bed. Soothing hands on my oily brow.... aromatheraeutic strokes... sigh.... I so love to be stroked. That's a thought.... I must be like a cat. Purrrrr..... Interesting....

Then we went to Lee Na's house to pick up Lee Ling and ended staying till 12am. Omg... Daniel did something. Oh, he did something alright. He did a number one out of the front door and onto our shoes! Daniel is my 3-year-olda nephew and he couldn't get the downstairs' bathroom door open. So since he couldn't hold it in anymore, he did it the only way he could - out through the grill of the front door! Most of our shoes were either drenched or splattered. That little boy... he is so adamant about being independent. =P